i think i am beginning to resent my neighbors

The apartments in university family housing are arranged in a triangle so that they share a common backyard. Each contains a clothesline and a couple of picnic tables. Ostensibly, the backyards are for communal use between the neighbors of each triangle. But the neighbors in my triangle are making me not want to go out there. I can't say that they are hogging the backyard, but their cliquishness makes me feel like they are. They all have toddlers the same age, all married, middle-aged, heterosexual couples. Basically, they are mirror opposites of me. I can of course go out there any time I please, but I will be forced to make awkward small talk. In the warm months, they are always right out there barbecuing. If I wanted to use the picnic tables or bbq at the same time, I don't know how it would work so I just avoid going out there. Additionally, I get the feeling that a lot of these folks don't care for me. Perhaps I am being paranoid. Perhaps they like me just fine but don't know what to say to me. But perhaps they don't like how I walk around my apartment with the shades up picking crust off my nipple rings or sit on the stoop drinking beer or have late-night guests or let my kid watch TV or don't have a husband or do have a lot of tattoos. Either way, its annoying, because they are all out right now, and they are in such close proximity that A) I can hear everything they say and B) If I were to go out there, I would be all of two feet away.

So much for community.